I will always love you. I think that’s what real love is. No matter what. No one could ever love you even half as much as I do. You broke me a thousand times and yet I’m still here. You settled for less. That makes me feel like I’m not enough. That I’m lower than what I thought I was.
You made me believe in love again. I didn’t plan on falling in love with you. It happened. The next thing I know you’re who I want to be with forever.
You have no idea how much it hurts. I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I really wanted to try. We had so much. We could have fixed it.
What’s fucked up is that I still want it, but I know I shouldn’t especially because you say you don’t. . I miss you so damn much. I remember every single world you said. Every promise you ever made. It hurts so fucking bad.
I see so much light in you. So much. And you choose to stay in the dark… You’re such a different person with her. You’re less loving, less considerate. You repress your feelings more. Ugh.
You’re so amazing to me. Why does it have to be like this? I know I don’t deserve this, so why did it happen?
I feel like I’m not worth anything…